just me

Nice to know

2012-01-26T21:23:00.003-05:00

It's so nice to know that when I need to talk to someone or have someone I can turn to there's no one there. I can't turn to my parents cause they just blow me off especially my mom. And I haven't really made any friends here yet. Plus, I'd rather not talk to them about my life. I've found I'm a lot better off if I'm a closed book instead of the open one I've always been. That way I don't get hurt so much.

2012

2012-01-24T23:34:00.003-05:00

So far 2012 is going well, but I don't want to jinx anything so I'll leave it at that. I haven't been up to a whole lot. I've been busy with work which is nice for the paycheck. I'm planning on possibly going to Ireland in a couple of months. Nothing set in stone on that end yet though.

Columbia

2011-12-22T01:07:00.002-05:00

I can't go into the Temple but it was still a very nice trip down to Columbia South Carolina to see the Temple.

no title

2011-12-16T17:03:00.002-05:00

Things have been going okay here. I just thought I'd stop by and say hello since it's been over a month. Not much is going on nor changed however. I need a life or something.

Back In SLC

2011-11-11T17:49:00.002-05:00

I'm in Salt Lake City again on personal leave. Last time I was here I was on personal leave for the very same reason and family I am now. On Wednesday my sweet, sweet aunt Alice passed away. Her funeral is tomorrow and the viewing is tonight. Aunt Alice is the wife of Uncle Joe. And Uncle was the reason I was here last time.
People need to stop dying.

Onesies

2011-10-28T01:06:00.002-04:00

I bought some plain white onesies and then added my own touch to them. My sister in law is also an Elvis Presley fan. I haven't sent the Elvis ones yet to them, but sent the other too for their little girl Jaysa when she's born next year!

Re hurt foot

2011-10-28T00:57:00.003-04:00

Tuesday I was dancing around a little in my apartment like I do from time to time. And as I went to jump into a little leap thing I felt a pull in my ankle. The same ankle I hurt in January and March. Well it's been bothering me ever since. And Wedneday I started to get a hot snesation feeling in my foot lasting 3-5 seconds throught the day and yesterday. Not good.

This is my foot Wednesday after work.

And this is my foot yesterday after work.

1899

2011-10-22T03:45:00.001-04:00

One more poem until I hit 1900 poems.

It's Good to Know

2011-10-22T02:11:00.000-04:00

It’s good to know the peace it brings.
The joy that the heart sings.
The comfort deep within.
The will to fight and win.
It’s good to know the happiness in life.
That all is lost in strife.
That faith turns fear away.
That rain won’t fall every day.
It’s good to know that God’s above,
Watching us with love.
That we may one day again live in that glorious place.
It’s good to know I can someday see his loving smiling face.

Hopes for Tomorrow

2011-10-22T02:10:00.000-04:00

I hope tomorrow brings a smile on your face.
For whenever you smile the world is a better place.
I hope tomorrow a dream will come true.
For you deserve happiness your whole life through.
I hope tomorrow will be a good day.
That sun shines through and the clouds float away.
I hope tomorrow the sun shines bright.
For always at the end of a dark tunnel there you’ll see the light.
And that I hop that tomorrow,
You cry no tears and feel no sorrow.
I hope tomorrow brings you a smile.
I hope you know that you are worth while.

One Life

2011-10-21T01:54:00.003-04:00

Sometimes it’s strange how one life can touch so many hearts.
How one life that’s ended can make a stranger brake into parts.
We don’t see the flood gates open until we begin to cry.
We don’t see how much we loved them until it’s time to say goodbye.
One life can impact so many in so many different ways.
Yet for those they knew and those they didn’t the one life will be remembered all our days.

My Tears

2011-10-21T01:54:00.001-04:00

My tears are for a child I never knew.
A child who made me smile if I ever felt blue.
A child who faced so much yet stayed so strong.
A child who’s life was sadly not long.
My tears are for the aching hearts of those left behind.
For those who wish now that time could rewind.
For those who lost the child they love.
The child they’ll greet again in heaven above.
My tears are for the one who brought great joy.
Joy to one and all every man, woman, girl and boy.
My tears are for a child I never met.
Yet this child I will never forget.

Cold and Warm

2011-10-21T01:52:00.000-04:00

Cold is the wind as it flows through the air.
Warm is the peace in knowing that you care.
Cold is the ache that comes with fear.
Warm is the knowledge you’re always near.
Cold is the rain as it falls from my face.
Warm is the sun as it touches this place.
Cold is the darkness that comes over me.
Warm is the light that shines for me to see.
Cold is the water as it touches my feet.
Warm is the life ahead I’m yet to meet.

The Reason I made You

2011-10-21T01:47:00.000-04:00

Grass of green and sky of blue.
Don’t you know how I love you?
Oceans deep and valleys wide.
All your tears I have dried.
Streams flowing down mountains tall.
Leaves that change their color in the fall.
Rain that falls from the sky.
And birds that fly way up high.
All creations I have made.
Not one I’d give up or I would trade.
And one that is so special and true.
Is the reason I made you.

Baby onsie

2011-10-20T20:03:00.000-04:00

My mom loves this onesie I got for my sister in law Lindsay.

Front

Back

Can anyone figure out why my mom would be over the moon for this?

It's a GIRL!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2011-10-15T00:24:00.000-04:00

My brother and sister in law found out today that they are having a girl! I'll have a niece! I'm so excited and happy for them!

Good news, bad news

2011-10-14T16:06:00.000-04:00

It's been a ripple effect week. I have a couple of friends that have had a pretty hard time. One friend had a son who was dianogised with a brain tumor, which good news was beninge and can be removed. Another friend had a child die. Her daughter was only 15 months old but was born with health problems. In following her blog I had grown to love this baby and her family and my heart is truly broken for their loss.
Strange how one life, even a life of someone you have never met can touch you and others so much like the life of this little child. All she had to endure and still to be as strong and give strength to others is amazing. She's at peace now which I'm grateful for. But still for some reason I feel a bit depressed about her passing and when I saw a picture of her father holding her after she passed I sat there and cried.
I don't have kids so I can't imagine what it is like to loss a child. It's a loss I hope I never have to endure. This little baby touched so many lives and will be missed. Ny heart and prayers go out to her family.

Not fun

2011-10-08T00:08:00.001-04:00

The last things I need right now is this.....

Rambling to show how much a geek I truly am

2011-09-12T02:05:00.000-04:00

My mind does funny things. I will think of odd things at odd times. And sometimes just cause I'm a geek I'll somewhat dwell on it until I make a decesion. Like tonight I was watching an episode of the TV show The Guardian on netflix.com which stars Simon Baker. Lately I've been on a Simon kick, but that's a whole nother story that I won't bore you on.
Anyway, so I got to thinking about a few things that one of the actors on my flight a couple weeks ago was telling me. I've always loved Tom Hanks and his movies. But this actor told me that Tom is a bit of a jerk. Simon on the other hand is a great guy.
My top 10 actors until tonight I would say would go in this order.

1. Tom Hanks
2. Robin Williams
3. Matthew Broderick
4. Gene Kelly
5. Donald O'Connor
6. Simon Baker
7. Elvis Presley
8. Montgomery Clift
9. Julia Robert
10. Meg Ryan

But tonight I started thinking about moving Simon to the top of the list. Then I decided I'm not going to. Tom's movies are more assible to me cause he does less R rated than Simon does. But Simon is on TV's The Mentalist so I see him more often. However, cause I've been a fan of Tom Hanks longer I'm keeping him as number one for now.
I did make a change though. I moved Simon to number four and Gene Kelly to number five and Donald O'Connor to number six. As much as I love Gene and Donald, they're dead. So now 5-8 on my list are dead actors. I got problems I know and you all probably could care less. But as the title says, Rambling to show how much a geek I truly am.
But you know what? I don't care. I like my geekyness. It's part of what makes me, me.

New Home

2011-09-08T23:03:00.000-04:00

I made it to Charlotte. I got there Tuesday and today I started work out of Charlotte as a Charlotte based Flight Attendant. It was good. I'm glad the long drive is over but I had fun with it too. I went through two states I had never been to which are Louisiana and Mississippi. So now the only states that I haven't been to are Vermont and North Dakota.

Numbers six and seven

2011-08-29T20:43:00.000-04:00

Today on flight from Flagstaff to Phoenix I had the actors Ryan Merriman and Rick Ravanello on my plane. It was the first time that I've had two in one day and the first time I had two on one flight.
Ryan slept pretty much the whole time but I had a nice talk with Rick. Real nice guys both of them.

Ryan

Rick

Released!

2011-08-24T21:20:00.001-04:00

I went back to the doctor today and after three weeks not being able to work I was released from care and back onto duty! Yeah so I can go back to work! Bout time. But more than likely my first day back will be out of Charlotte. Can't wait!

Piano Playing

2011-08-15T01:38:00.000-04:00

Though there is no visual I am the one playing the piano. And yes it is simplifed versions of the songs.

Jepordy Theme

Lara's Theme (Somewhere My Love)

I'm going to be an AUNT!

2011-08-07T18:26:00.001-04:00

My brother and his wife are expecting their first child in February!

Some days....

2011-08-06T23:34:00.000-04:00

it's better to just stay in bed and not wake up.

Anyway....

2011-08-04T04:29:00.000-04:00

Well Tuesday at work my back injury from when I fell a couple weeks again came back. I worked last week and though I was a bit uncomfortable I was capable of working. Where as Tuesday I couldn't bed down to get a drink out of the cart. Anyway I'm off work for at least another week. I started physical therapy yesterday. I'm still sore but feel a bit better. So hopefully I'll be able to be released again next week. The timing couldn't have come any worse seeing how I'm moving at the end of the month. Oh well such is life right?

Packing

2011-08-01T22:52:00.000-04:00

The start of the packing process.

September 1st

2011-07-29T14:59:00.000-04:00

I have to be in Charlotte by September 1st. So just a little more than a month left here. Now I've really got to get to work on getting ready to move.

Now the waiting begins

2011-07-20T15:11:00.000-04:00

I have put in for the tranfer to Charlotte. So now the waiting to see when I go begins. I'm excitied and hope to find out soon. Last time I put in for a transfer when I came to Phoenix I knew within a couple of days.
So due to my back injury I had on Friday I'm out of work for the week. But the weekend was fun. I went up to Reno to see my friend Sarah. It had been almost two years since I've seen her and her family. Hopefully next time it's not such a long gap. I had a great time and am so thankful for their friendship.

Accident Prone

2011-07-16T18:21:00.000-04:00

I hate being such a kults! Last night we were taxing out to the runway to go to Omaha. I was the front flight attendant so I was doing the safety demos. I have to show them in row one and ten. I had just done the oxygen mask in row ten and turned to go back to the front when my left foot got caught in a bag strap and down I went. I landed pretty hard. I'm okay but we had to return to the gate and replace me cause I'm pretty banged up. I'm doing better today then I was last night, I'm just really sore.

Work

2011-07-06T00:11:00.000-04:00

In the last couple weeks work has been hectic and stressful. Most of our planes are broken so everything is either cancelled or delayed badly. It's crazy. So I'm either really late or stuck somewhere.
Yesterday for example I was to report to work at noon, but around nine thirty my company called to tell me the flight had been dropped. So I then showed up at the airport at seven thirty and was cancelled and then told to come back at ten. Then that was cancelled and was on call until midnight in which I was not used. So I was on duty for about four and a half hours and was paid nothing.
For those who don't know, I only get paid if I fly. So from when the main cabin door shuts and when it opens is when I get paid. So all the time I'm sitting around not doing anything, boarding, deplaning or whatever I'm not being paid. I can put in a 14hour duty day but if I for only an hour all I get paid for is that hour.
The pay sucks but it's a fun job and I still it enjoy it and looking forward to what it holds for me in Charlotte.

Celeb #5

2011-07-01T02:15:00.000-04:00

Tonight from Aberquce NM to Phoenix I had Scarlett Johansson on my flight. She was real nice and curtious. And had a good sense of humor too.

Bored

2011-06-25T14:14:00.000-04:00

I didn't well last night and had to wake at the break of dawn this morning for work. I'm in Tucson on day 4 of a 4 day, so it's my last day this week. Anyway we get to the airport and are told that the plane is down, so we wait a while then return to the hotel, which is where I still am now. I'm tried and would love to go back to bed, but don't know what all is going on with the plane and when we are going to get to leave, so am afraid of falling asleep.
Dad just called to let me know that he has landed in Phoenix. I told him to call his brother or sister that live in Mesa, cause I have no idea when I'll get there. I wish I could just rent a car and drive back up to Phoenix. It's only about a two hour drive so not bad.
I'm bored out of my mind. I need something to do! I'm going crazy with boredem!

Good News

2011-06-20T16:01:00.001-04:00

I love good news!

About the transfer

2011-06-01T03:46:00.000-04:00

I've decided to put in for the transfer to Charlotte in July. That way I have a liitle more time to tie up loose ends here in Phoenix. So hopefully in October I'll make the move. I'm excited about my desicion and can't wait to go. It's time.
On a sad note about two weeks ago my uncle Mac passed away. He was actually my dad's uncle so my great uncle but I called him my uncle. He was in his 90s, lived a good life and he had a stroke about 11 years ago and just hasn't been the same. But still it's never easy to hear about someone whom you love and care about is no longer around.

Celeb #4

2011-05-27T01:00:00.001-04:00

Today I had my 4th celeb or famous person. On my flight to Des Moines this morning I had former football player Kurt Warner on the plane. Knowing my brother Lincoln was a hugh football fan I asked Kurt if he would give me an autograph for him. He did that's what this picture is. He was a really nice guy as well so it was a good experience.

Made a Decison

2011-05-12T02:19:00.000-04:00

I've been thinking for a long time that I needed something else in life. I didn't know what, and still have a long way to go to figre every thing out. But last night I made a decison in that direction. I don't know when for sure but before the year's end I'm putting in for a transfer to Charlotte. So sometime probably within the next few months I'll be moving back to the east coast. I'm excited and torn about it. I've always said that Charlotte was my jinx and could never be based there. Then again I also said I'd never be based in Phoenix and Dulles was at first my last choice. So to be honest to begin with I have never been that excited about any base I've been at.
I just don't see myself here in Phoenix much longer. I'm excited to start a new chapter in life in Charlotte. I love the east coast and the south, so I'm going to an area that I already know I love.
My senoirity has dropped 14 places in a month here in Phoenix. This month I was 120 next month I'm 134. In Charlotte I'd be number 88 in the base. So in a way it's moving up the ladder. Also in some ways I wish I was going to Charlotte now.
I don't feel like I'm making a wrong decision. I feel good about it and feel it's something I need to do.
I went to the doctor today to see about my ankle, which I still don't know yet. Anyway this morning I woke up with a sore throat, which sucks cause it's not fun being sick and I was suppose to work tomorrow. Anyway the doctor didn't like the looks of my thorat was tested for strep, which it's not thank heavens. But I was running a 100* tempature so I'm off work for the week. I'd rather be working. But maybe it will give me some time to start to get things ready to move.

Palm Springs

2011-04-30T03:10:00.000-04:00

Yesterday on a long over night in Palm Springs I rented a car and went exploring to a graveyard and the house that Elvis Presley had there.

Ankle

2011-04-20T01:31:00.000-04:00

I rolled my right ankle really badly almost a month ago. This is what it looked like yesterday. I'm doing a little better but being on my feet all day at work even with a brace isn't all that much fun for it.

Oh well...life

2011-04-13T04:53:00.000-04:00

I was looking over some pictures of a couple guys I used to like just siming photos and I got to thinking that I'm not sure what I found attractive. Not that they're ugly, but I probably wouldn't go for them as much today if they were still single as I did when I was younger. Don't get me wrong they're great guys and I'm still friends with a few of them. That's propbly what I found attractive. Oh well.
I was talking with my mom and figured out that I know around 20 people who from January 1st this year to now either just had a baby or will before the end of the year. And I'm still single. But that's okay. I'm happy for them.
I've really struggled lately in my spiritual growth and life and it's something I need to work on and I'm trying. In fact on Sunday I went to church for the first time since July (well other than when I was visiting). And it went good and it felt good. Now I've got to get my mojo going for next week as well.

In tribute

2011-03-19T02:49:00.000-04:00

Too all those who have come in and out of my life and touched it for the better.

Thank you for the laughs, thank you for the fun.
I want you to know many things now our friendship is almost done.
Through think and thin, through wind and rain,
With me you'll forever remain.
I treasure all the time we shared.
I treasure to know you were there when I thought no one cared.
A special place in my heart you hold, right where you belong.
You raised me up when I wasn't strong.
Thank you for your friendship that I hold so dear.
It will remain close in some ways you'll always be near.
And I'm not bitter or broken here at the end.
For deep in my heart, I know you're my forever friend.

2011-03-01T16:36:00.000-05:00

I was up a bit so this is zoomed in, but the seats we had really weren't that bad.

Stars on Ice Part II

2011-03-01T16:23:00.001-05:00

Saturday mom and I went to Stars on Ice up in Portland. I loved it! But then again I knew that I would! There was only one skater that was there that I'm not a fan of and that was Sasha Cohen. But the rest I'm a huge fan of. Kurt Browning, Todd Eldredge, Michael Weiss, Evan Lysacek, Ekaterina Gordeeva, Joannie Rochette, Jamie Sale and David Pelletier, and Tanith Belbin and Benjamin Agosto. Kurt had me in stiches I was laughing so hard. I didn't want it to end. I hope to go again next year. In fact I would love to make it a yearly thing.

Stars on Ice

2011-02-05T19:02:00.000-05:00

This years marks the 25th year for Stars on Ice. So of coruse I want to go! However, they aren't coming to Phoenix, bummer. But...they are going to Portland. And yesterday in the mail I got my tickets to go! So I'm so excited. My mom is coming too. It will be her second time, she and I went in 1999 and my third cause I went last year when they came to Phoenix.

I'm an oldd one Part II

2011-02-05T18:34:00.000-05:00

http://cbg84justme.blogspot.com/2010/05/im-odd-one.html
I keep doing it. I like more nad more people who are dead. Now granted there are a few that I like that are now dead that I liked when they were alive. Like just recently the death of actor John Dye has gotten me to watch a bunch of Touched by an Angel clips on youtube. I swear I think that I am a fan of more dead people than I am alive ones. Oh well, I should just stamp geek across my forehead.

Hair cut

2011-01-27T19:55:00.000-05:00

I choped four inches off. Well I personally didn't I went to a salon and they did.

Ingore the bad picture I took it with my phone. Same with the after shot. This is the before.

And this is after.

Something I just thought about

2011-01-19T01:29:00.000-05:00

You know it's weird, as much as I loved and still love Uncle Joe, he and I weren't all that close. I know that he loved me and still loves me and always wanted me to be happy and what was best for me. Yet I feel a huge loss with his passing. More so than with my grandmothers. A few reasons for this I think is one both grandmothers were in their 80s and had lived their lives. All their children are grown and had families of their own. Also that were having health problems for a long time. They just seemed old. Uncle Joe on the other had was only 64 and lived everyday to it's fullest. Though all his children are grown not all of their full families yet. The two youngest just got married last year. Thankfully he was able to attend both.
I don't know what it is or why I feel such a loss other than maybe I regret not being closer to him. Or just cause as stated many times at the funeral of just how wonderful and amazing he was and there is a whole there now that I never realized he filled before. Just a thought or a few thoughts I had.

The weekend

2011-01-18T21:17:00.001-05:00

I don't know what my body is doing, but it started I guess you can say Firday. I have a medicne I'm suppose to take daily. However on Friday after I got to the airport to go up to Utah for Uncle Joe's funeral I realized I left it at home. Then on Saturday when the funeral activites were almost done I started to have anxisty really bad. Then a little later withdrew from everyone and then got sick, like really sick. Sunday afternoon I had the panic attacks again and made my parents stay in Phoenix a couple extra days just as they were about to get on the plane to go back home. Then this morning I got sick again but just the once and I'm fine now and I was fine all day yesterday. However earlier tonight I've been hit by a blast of depression and loneliness. I don't know really how to explain it. I do know that I don't like it and I hate it when my body plays games on me like this.

2011

2011-01-07T17:24:00.000-05:00

Well I hope ya'll had a great start to this new year and it just gets better from here!

1,800

2011-01-01T00:28:00.000-05:00

I wrote my 1,800th poem today. What in the world am I gonna do with all those poems!?

Grateful

2010-12-23T03:15:00.000-05:00

All day today I've just been having sort of an off day. But I do have to say that I'm so grateful for my friend Lee and my mom who were there when I really needed someone to turn to. Though things are still a little rough emotionally for me right now I'm so glad that I was able to talk to them and recieve their help and love. I just wanted to say that I'm grateful for them and many other people and things in my life.

1,791

2010-12-15T18:03:00.000-05:00

Last night I wrote my 1,791st poem. I've been writting them now for just over three years. I have too much time on my hands. (I don't care what my dad says :) )

Cooking with Josh

2010-12-15T15:15:00.000-05:00

Just a couple more reasons why I love Josh Groban. Other than his music and beautiful voice (and the fact I'm helplessly attracted to him) he cracks me up!

Makes me wonder if these came from kindergarten. :)

Forever

2010-12-15T01:20:00.000-05:00

I know it's been a while since I last posted. But truth, not alot has been going on. Just the same old same old. I went back to Graceland on the 2nd for a grand total of eight times now. Then I went back to Oregon for a couple of days. Tonight on the way to work I was rearended. But other than that life is pretty much the same.

1752

2010-10-19T02:09:00.000-04:00

I have now written 1,752 poems in a little over three years.

Canon in D

2010-09-25T22:02:00.000-04:00

I like to play around on the piano, always have. This is a new song I'm learning. Now it's not the whole song and mind you I don't think it's all that good, but still I was proud of it.

LA

2010-09-22T02:37:00.001-04:00

Right now I'm in LA I got here yesterday after a 6 and a half hour drive from Phoenix. And I get to make the drive back tomorrow. Which by the way I'm not looking forward to. Anyway I'm a HUGE fan of actors Montgomery Clift and Michael Landon. I went and saw Michael's grave yesterday. I was on Hollywood Blvd last night and decided to see if I could go up to the ninth floor and see the room number (the room was occupied) of the room that Montgomery Clift stayed in while fliming the movie From Here to Eternity. And to my surprise they let me.
So far it's been a good trip.

Hello

2010-09-06T17:21:00.000-04:00

So September is here and it's still frying in Phoenix, the good thing is that I'm rearly here. Not a whole lot to post on, life is still the norm. Nothing to specail or exciting right not. Just thought I'd say hello. So hello.

Update again

2010-08-26T22:42:00.000-04:00

I know it's been a bit since I wrote but honest I don't think alot of people look at it and that's fine. But that's why I haven't posted alot lately. Well since my last post I had a birthday, which was a pretty good one. I was up in Oregon with my family for it. We went to the coast.
This morning I had a tooth that has been bothering me pulled. It wasn't what I thought it would be like and almost didn't go through with it. But it's out and done with and as of now don't have to worry about it.

Sux Days Off

2010-08-08T05:57:00.001-04:00

As I write I'm in the Dulles airport dreading leaving, but had a good day and a half here. I went to my friend Cody's wedding reception and the best part for me was seeing his face and many others cause I didn't tell anyone that I was coming. Well execpt for Lee who I didn't get to see this time cause his brother was also getting married. Now I'm on my way to Oregon for a couple days.
Oh and only three more days until my birthday!

Flying

2010-08-06T07:26:00.000-04:00

I fly for a living almost every day. Normally on my days off I'm no where near an airport or plane. But today I'm on my way to Virginia for a couple days for a friend's wedding. Then on Sunday it's off to Oregon for a couple days and my birthday on Wednesday. Then Thursday it's back home and Friday back to work.
I like my job I really do, but there are days, like yesterday, that make me wonder why I ever became a flight attendant.
I've asked myself that question every now and then and lately it seems to be a question I ask more often.
Honest, being a filght attendant wasn't my dream or goal. It wasn't even in my plans.However, when my dreams, goals and plans fell through my mom suggested that I look into being a flight attendant.
At first I did it all for her. I was so so about it. But the more I got into it the more I became interested and it started to be more for me.
Why I'm a flight attendant now (almost five years later)
* I love traveling.
* I love meeting new people
* I love working with different kinds of people
* No matter how many times you go somewhere or work with someone it's never the same. Every flight is different.
* I love the veriality

Sometimes though when things like mother nature turn against you it's hard to remember the things you love about your job. But those that I listed are the main reasons why I'm a flight attendant and why I still am today.

Last 48 Hours

2010-07-29T00:34:00.000-04:00

A couple days ago there was an innocedent on the plane invaulving a passenger that I felt I had to fill out paper work for just in case something comes of it, the company will have my side of the story. I was in a pretty losy mood for the rest of the day after wards.
However, today was exactly what I needed. Though I didn't start out in the best of moods (but I never do when I have to be up at 4:30am). I ran into a captain that strongly believes I'm wrong to believe in what I do (church wise) and I'm so tired of being told I'm wrong (there's a few others that have expressed such things to me as well at work).
However at work shortly after that I did a bunch of Tucson turns where since they are only 20 minutes we don't serve. So I sat talking to a couple passengers and had some really good conversations and the passgeners expressed apperication that I talked with them.
There was one couple that really gave me a wake up call. I don't know their names (since I didn't ask and they didn't say) so I'll call them Sally and Jim. When Sally was six months old she had her right eye removed cause of cancer.
She and Jim had a little girl who at five months old got the same cancer, but luckily was able to beat it and keep her eyes. She beat it last October.
Then April of this year Sally's mom and their daughter was killed in a car accident. Then next day Sally gave birth to another little girl. This little girl is now three months and she has the cancer in both of her eyes as well.
The car that hit killed their daughter and Sally's mom the driver was driving on a suspended license for the seventh time. But apparently since there was no drugs or drinking problems at any time he only got a misterminer.
So see and talk to this couple was a real eye opener. With every thing that they've had to deal with, overcame and deal with now, they still are able to keep their head above water and put their faith in love in God.
It also showed me that no matter what life gives us to also remember to count our blessings. That's something I don't very much. When tough times come I tend to dwell in pitty and sorrow. It's something I need to try harder not to do.
Count your blessings, something I'm going to try to work on alot more now.
So in the last 48 hours I went from horrible to pretty good.

Slight Update

2010-07-10T02:49:00.000-04:00

Well the results of my Uncle's brain tumor is not good. Mom said he told her they gave him three months to two years to live. But he won't overcome it. It's a death sentence. Great and now I'm crying.

Life just gets better and better (stated with sarcasim)

2010-07-03T17:05:00.000-04:00

Well last couple weeks have been both stressful and emotional. I got check rided at work and now have to have a meeting about what the check rider said. I don't think I'll be in big trouble or really any, but they just have to go over it with me. Also I found out that one of my uncles has a brain tumor and was just told day that my grandpa was colon cancer.
I'm so tired of all these one more things that's been happening to me in the last couple of years. It doesn't seem like it was that long ago that life was breezy. Then I moved to Arizona and the flood gates opened.
I'm emotionally drained and in major need of a break or some kind of get away. I wish I could just go somewhere where no one could find me, and all the bad that has happened would have no effect on me cause I wouldn't know about it.
I mean I'm glad to be informed, but I wish that there was a way to see it through without wanting to scream at the top of my lungs and pull my hair out!

2010-06-28T03:34:00.000-04:00

I know I haven't posted in a while. Life has been a bit hectic, but I think things are starting to get back to a better pace. Hopefully anyway. Basically I've just been busy with work mostly. A few stressful personal side jobs in life thrown in as well. But I'm hanging on the best I can and doing the best I can for now.

Stars on Ice

2010-05-19T01:37:00.000-04:00

I have fallen in love with figure skating all over again. Stars on Ice tonight was amazing and I wanted it to never end. I hope to go again next year. Back up to Utah tomorrow.

Ocean Waves

2010-05-09T22:59:00.001-04:00

Maybe it's just me but watch the waves and see if you spot something different.

Yesterday. all my troubles seemed to punch me in the gut!

2010-05-08T02:19:00.000-04:00

Yesterday was one of those days that would have gone better had I not gotten out of bed. For about a week or so I've been having problems with my back tire on the passenger side of my car. But instead of being responsible for it I ignored it. Well yesterday on the way to work it blew, it's completely shreaded. I mangaged to get off the road safely and right now it's parked at a Motel 6. So then I had to take a taxi the rest of the way to work. I got to work with about 30 minutes to spare. This week I'm on a 200 which means I'm the only flight attendant on the plane. The first flight was a disater from the word go. I spilt a soda on someone, I dropped trash in the ail, and I backed up into a little kid. Thankfully the other two flights where better. Then I get to the hotel in Des Monies and my room they put me in is dirty, so is the second room. Now it's after midnight and I just want to crawl into bed and not get out. Thankfully again the third time is a charm and the room was fine. I spent a lovely fun filled 31 hours of doing nothing at the hotel here in Des Monies. I have no money to take a taxi anywhere or rent a car. So that's it. Hopefully the rest of the trip goes better.

I'm an odd One

2010-05-06T01:46:00.000-04:00

I need to stop watching old movies and becoming a fan of all the old timers most of which are no longer among the living. And yet I'm proud to be an old timer fan. In truth sometimes the older movies are better than today's. I will say though I do like today's movies as well and quite a few of today's actors. But I'm a fan of quite a few of the older ones too.

For example ~
Today Actors ----------------- Old Timers
Tom Hanks -------------------- Gene Kelly
Robin Williams --------------- Donald O'Connor
Matthew Broderick ------------ Elvis Presley
Denzel Washington ------------ Montgomery Clift
Meg Ryan --------------------- James Stewart
Julia Roberts ---------------- Yul Brynner

Today Movies ---------------- Old Timer Movies
Time Traveler's Wife -------- The King and I
Marley and Me --------------- Singin' in the Rain
Old Dogs -------------------- I Confess
The Blind Side -------------- It's a Wonderful Life
Dear John ------------------- Jailhouse Rock
The Lovely Bones ------------ It Happened One Night

To name a few.

Stars on Ice

2010-04-30T23:57:00.000-04:00

For those who don't know I'm a HUGE and AVID fan of figure skating! And I have been since I was 13. Anyway I was able to drop a trip so I get a week off and two very exciting things happen cause of this. One I just got tickets to go see Stars on Ice when it comes to Phoenix in 18 days! I'll get to see skaters like Tanith Belbin and Ben Agosto, Todd Eldredge, Evan Lysacek and many more that I've loved for years! I'm so excited. Last time I went to Stars on Ice was 11 years ago!
The second exciting thing is I get to go back to Utah but this time for a friend's wedding!

Elvis Nerd

2010-04-27T21:37:00.000-04:00

Right now I'm Las Vegas. I'm staying at the Holiday Inn but I went down to the Hilton Hotel which used to be called the International Hotel. When it's the hotel that Elvis used to preform at from 1969-1976. Yes I'm truly an Elvis nerd. But I don't care I love Elvis and am proud of it!

Hair cut

2010-04-26T18:48:00.000-04:00

With it warming up in Phoenix I decided to get a new look.

Who wouldn't want to marry me?

2010-04-12T03:38:00.000-04:00

I went up to Utah for Easter weekend and while there mom and I went and looked at wedding dresses just for fun. I wasn't going to try any on, but as you see I did. Please ignore that the back isn't done up, I was going just for the front look so did do up the back.
But I sure make a cute bride. Who wouldn't want to marry me? :)

It's never going to change

2010-04-01T02:13:00.000-04:00

I've said it before and I'll say it again, I'm happy for all the friends I have that have found that special someone and fallen in love. But for me it's never going to happen. Oh why can't I just be happy and let it be?! Instead I feel a mixture of happiness and bitterness.
I'm forever going to be single. It's never going to change, and it's frustrating. I had a long talk with a friend last night and while it helped and I understood some things better, it doesn't change compeletly how I feel.
I can never get past just being friends with a guy and it drives me insain! I am so sick and tired of just being friends. I want something more! And it's hard that I feel and fear that it just wont happen for me.
Since I'll probably be alone for the rest of my life I might as well be happy with it. And deal with it the best I know how.

Totally made my night!

2010-03-30T01:34:00.000-04:00

About a month ago I wrote an email to an old friend that I haven't talked to or heard from in a long time just on a whim, and tonight I got an email back. Made my night!

Update

2010-03-26T18:00:00.000-04:00

Last Thursday right after work I flew out to Dulles and spent the weekend out there. I had a blast and hating leaving. When I got back to Phoenix on Sunday all I wanted was to be back in Virginia.
Friday my friend Lee took me to the DC Zoo which I had never been to before. I got to see a Panda which I don't believe I had ever seen before either.
Saturday we went to have lunch with my friend Jen and then went back to Lee's where Cody and his fience came over for ice cream.
Sunday I went to church which was stake conference. Then afterwards stopped by the Bishop's for a little while then it was off to the airport.
I really miss it and love it out there!
Then on Wednesday of this week I had an over night in Memphis and you guessed it I went back to Graceland. So I have now been to Graceland seven wonderful times. It never gets old. I love Graceland and I love Elvis!

Don't know what I really feel

2010-03-15T06:12:00.000-04:00

In the last month I've had several good friends get engaged. And while deep down I;m happy for them I also don't know what I really feel. And with the last one I found out about I found out through the grapevine, just hurt that he didn't tell me. I'll be in town (Virginia) next weekend and you know what I really don't want to tell him I'll be there. When I congraduated him he said thank you and I was awesome. Well if he thinks I'm awesome then why couldn't he just have told me that he is engaged. Makes me mad. I mean I care about the guy as a friend and want him to be happy. Yes in the past I had rather strong feelings for him, but that was in the past. I mean we're talking about over two years ago. I'm over him and have been for a long while now.
With the other friends that have gotten engaged I more or less wish I could just be happy for them without being jealous.
Though in truth I'm happy for all of my friends who just got engaged and wish them all the joy, love and happiness life offers.

Please keep my brother in your prayers

2010-03-11T02:21:00.000-05:00

My little brother has been having a really rough time lately and is not doing well. He's in a hospital right now, and I'm not sure completely how he is. So please pray for him and our family. Thank you it means alot.

Dylan

2010-03-05T13:38:00.001-05:00

Aint he cute! My friend Julie had him back in January but she sent me this picture yesterday. I can't wait to meet him!

Back from Hawaii

2010-02-26T21:39:00.001-05:00

I got back yesterday. I had a blast and loved every bit of it. My parents and brother Allen also came along.

More to come.

Hawaii

2010-02-21T02:13:00.000-05:00

I'm in Hawaii! I'm so excited!

Olympics - Figure Skating

2010-02-19T00:38:00.000-05:00

I'm an avide figure skating fan! And so far at these Olympics I'm 2 and 2. I wanted the pair team of Shen and Zhao to win and they did. And I wanted Evan Lysacek to win and he did. But I'm also one who is really nervous watcher. I have to know the results before watching if possible. Thankfully in both cases it was. But I was tracking their progress and all the other skaters on the internet. I'm just so happy for Shen and Zhao and Evan! Also Shen and Zhao are the first Olympic Champions in pairs for China and Evan is the first American man to win gold since Brian Boitano in 1988. Evan is also the first American man to win Olympic gold as the currant World Champion since Scott Hamilton in 1984. Last year when Evan won the Worlds he became the first American man to do so since Todd Eldredge in 1996. I love Evan and hope he sticks around for a little while longer (though I have my doubts).

Photo Fun Page

2010-02-10T13:45:00.001-05:00

Please check out my photo fun page!

Where I went on January 27, 2010

2010-01-29T17:51:00.000-05:00

Six times now and it never gets old!

Going down memory lane

2010-01-17T00:07:00.000-05:00

For the last couple days when I've been home I've looked over some of my old log books from work. Mostly of my time in Dulles and it has brought back a lot of memories, some good, some bad. And truth it has made me want to go back even more. Life here in Phoenix isn't at all what I thought it would be nor is my life where I thought it would be. Though deep in my heart I know that I'm suppose to be here for whatever reason right now, I'd give anything to be back in Virginia. But as long as I'm here in Phoenix might as well make the best of it.

2010

2010-01-06T14:28:00.000-05:00

Well year hasn't had the best of starts but hopefully things start to go a bit better. I will say though so far it beats last year.

2009 almost Done

2009-12-29T20:35:00.001-05:00

Hard to believe that 2009 is almost over. I'm glad it is and have no hopes for next year. Maybe if I just take 2010 for what it is then it will go better than 2008 and 2009. At least that is my secret hope. Well I guess it's not so secret now. :)

Christmas in Virginia!

2009-12-27T00:05:00.000-05:00

Merry belated Christmas to all! Yesterday at work was hectic. We had to play the game of catch up all day long! We landed in Dulles and I was happy as could be not only cause we were done for the day but cause I was home again. Virginia more now since I left feels like home and to a degree always has. I miss it tons! My friend Lee and his girfriend picked me up from the airport and we went around dropping off gift bags I brought with me at people's homes like I did when I lived there. Then this morning I met up with some people at IHOP for breakfast before I headed back off to work. I was so sad to leave and it broke my heart. But over all I had a good holiday. I opened most of gifts Wednesday when I had the day off. I brought my stocking with me and opened it at the hotel yesterday morning. All in all I can't complain. Hope Christmas was enjoyable for all!

Sister Odirone, Bishop Odirone, me and Tyler

Dan and I

Cody and I

Alex and I

Lee and his girfriend Rebecca (so cute!)

All going to be There

2009-12-17T18:22:00.001-05:00

The one friend we were waiting to here from has comfirmed! So they're all going to be there!

So Excited

2009-12-14T22:45:00.000-05:00

Yesterday my friend Lee texted me saying that all but one of our friends that I've asked him to contact for me are in for breakfast the day after Christmas! We're waiting to hear from the one person. But nonetheless I'm excited to see all my Virginia friends!

East and South

2009-12-05T23:43:00.000-05:00

This week at work I get to go several places I haven't been since I left Dulles! Like right now I'm in Charleston South Carolina! Though I hate the hotel bed. It's the same hotel I was in when I came here from Dulles. Sleep Number beds stink. I very much don't like them. Tomorrow I go to Nashville TN and Greensboro NC. I haven't been to either of them since I left Dulles either! I'm so excited. Granted I'm not in any of the places very long, but still I sort of feel like I'm out of Dulles again and it's exciting.

Four Years

2009-11-30T03:06:00.000-05:00

Well it was four years ago today that I was hired as a flight attendant. Man these four years have gone by so fast. Though there may be somethings I wish were different in my life (like being married. :) ) I wouldn't change the last four years for anything.
I love being a flight attendant and hope to do it for a while longer yet. I'm not readying to give up flying. I love what I do.
In the last four years I've grown alot and become more of my own person and learned to leave my shell a bit. It's funny to think that when I first started alot of people I know jaws hit the floor when they found out that I was a flight attendant. Yet if you ask some of my coworkers and passengers they'll tell you their jaws hit the floor to find out how shy I was growing up.
Then again I'm more outgoing at work then when I'm not. But I guess there are some things that don't totally change. But then again I'm more outgoing out of work than I used to be.
I've learned more about life and myself in the last four years and met incredible people that have impacted my life for the better good forever. I've been able to see and go places I'd never been able to if I was doing what I am now. And because of the experinces I've been able to have I've learned to be happier, healthier, and better all around.
So here is to four years and how many more to come!

Seeing Stars

2009-11-26T19:55:00.000-05:00

Last night during a over night in Orange County I rented a car and the flight attendant I was working with and I went down to Hollywood Blvd and walked along the Walk of Fame. It was fun and I enjoyed it.

The first picture is just having fun. But I saw many more stars than these ones.

Merry Christmas Early

2009-11-19T05:58:00.000-05:00

I found out that I have an over night in Dulles Christmas Day! Bummer I have to work Christmas but at least I'm going to be in a totally kick butt place and I'm so excited!

Service Carts

2009-11-05T01:11:00.000-05:00

Last night at work these were our two service carts. The gray one (the bottom one) is US Airways cart that we use in Phoenix and Charlotte. The blue one (the top one) is the United cart that we use in Dulles and Chicago. So when I saw the blue on the US Airway plane I very voically stated my claim to use it. It made me homesick for Dulles.
Don't get me wrong I like and enjoy Phoenix I just loved Dulles so much and still do I miss it like crazy.

Weekend in Oregon

2009-11-02T22:37:00.000-05:00

I hadn't been home in six months and I had a three day weekend so I figured it was about time I went up to Oregon to visit the fam. I did and I enjoyed. Though I love living on my own and having my freedoom it's nice to go home every now and then.

Snoring

2009-10-29T04:00:00.000-04:00

I have to be up in four hours for work. This is not going to be fun. Anyway I can hear either my FO or CA in the other room of this hotel snoring to his heart's delight. Then again it probably doesn't help that I'm still on the computer as well.

Photo Fun

2009-10-22T04:51:00.000-04:00

Check it Out

http://havingfunwithphotos.blogspot.com/

Gimp

2009-10-19T02:45:00.000-04:00

It's a computer program kind of like photo shop. These are the after the toying around. The photos were taken by me.

New Phone

2009-10-18T23:41:00.000-04:00

So yesterday right after I got through security at the Memphis Airport I discovered that I was missing my phone. I think I left it at the hotel. I've never done that. I've been working now for four years next month and that's the first time I've done that. Anyway so right after work I went to the store and got a new one. It's the same number as my old number just a new phone. My mom wants to see what it looks like so here are a couple pictures.