Stars on Ice

For those who don't know I'm a HUGE and AVID fan of figure skating! And I have been since I was 13. Anyway I was able to drop a trip so I get a week off and two very exciting things happen cause of this. One I just got tickets to go see Stars on Ice when it comes to Phoenix in 18 days! I'll get to see skaters like Tanith Belbin and Ben Agosto, Todd Eldredge, Evan Lysacek and many more that I've loved for years! I'm so excited. Last time I went to Stars on Ice was 11 years ago!
The second exciting thing is I get to go back to Utah but this time for a friend's wedding!

Elvis Nerd

Right now I'm Las Vegas. I'm staying at the Holiday Inn but I went down to the Hilton Hotel which used to be called the International Hotel. When it's the hotel that Elvis used to preform at from 1969-1976. Yes I'm truly an Elvis nerd. But I don't care I love Elvis and am proud of it!

Hair cut

With it warming up in Phoenix I decided to get a new look.

Who wouldn't want to marry me?

I went up to Utah for Easter weekend and while there mom and I went and looked at wedding dresses just for fun. I wasn't going to try any on, but as you see I did. Please ignore that the back isn't done up, I was going just for the front look so did do up the back.
But I sure make a cute bride. Who wouldn't want to marry me? :)

It's never going to change

I've said it before and I'll say it again, I'm happy for all the friends I have that have found that special someone and fallen in love. But for me it's never going to happen. Oh why can't I just be happy and let it be?! Instead I feel a mixture of happiness and bitterness.
I'm forever going to be single. It's never going to change, and it's frustrating. I had a long talk with a friend last night and while it helped and I understood some things better, it doesn't change compeletly how I feel.
I can never get past just being friends with a guy and it drives me insain! I am so sick and tired of just being friends. I want something more! And it's hard that I feel and fear that it just wont happen for me.
Since I'll probably be alone for the rest of my life I might as well be happy with it. And deal with it the best I know how.

Totally made my night!

About a month ago I wrote an email to an old friend that I haven't talked to or heard from in a long time just on a whim, and tonight I got an email back. Made my night!

Update

Last Thursday right after work I flew out to Dulles and spent the weekend out there. I had a blast and hating leaving. When I got back to Phoenix on Sunday all I wanted was to be back in Virginia.
Friday my friend Lee took me to the DC Zoo which I had never been to before. I got to see a Panda which I don't believe I had ever seen before either.
Saturday we went to have lunch with my friend Jen and then went back to Lee's where Cody and his fience came over for ice cream.
Sunday I went to church which was stake conference. Then afterwards stopped by the Bishop's for a little while then it was off to the airport.
I really miss it and love it out there!
Then on Wednesday of this week I had an over night in Memphis and you guessed it I went back to Graceland. So I have now been to Graceland seven wonderful times. It never gets old. I love Graceland and I love Elvis!

Don't know what I really feel

In the last month I've had several good friends get engaged. And while deep down I;m happy for them I also don't know what I really feel. And with the last one I found out about I found out through the grapevine, just hurt that he didn't tell me. I'll be in town (Virginia) next weekend and you know what I really don't want to tell him I'll be there. When I congraduated him he said thank you and I was awesome. Well if he thinks I'm awesome then why couldn't he just have told me that he is engaged. Makes me mad. I mean I care about the guy as a friend and want him to be happy. Yes in the past I had rather strong feelings for him, but that was in the past. I mean we're talking about over two years ago. I'm over him and have been for a long while now.
With the other friends that have gotten engaged I more or less wish I could just be happy for them without being jealous.
Though in truth I'm happy for all of my friends who just got engaged and wish them all the joy, love and happiness life offers.

Please keep my brother in your prayers

My little brother has been having a really rough time lately and is not doing well. He's in a hospital right now, and I'm not sure completely how he is. So please pray for him and our family. Thank you it means alot.

Dylan

Aint he cute! My friend Julie had him back in January but she sent me this picture yesterday. I can't wait to meet him!