Little Update

Well I'm in Oregon and will be until Saturday. I got here last Saturday. Sunday I went to church with my folks. Yesterday I went and saw my high school counselor and then went out to eat with mom, Lincoln and my friend Tia. Today I went over and spent the morning with my friend Shana and her little boy. He's so cute. Here's a picute of us.

Mall of America

Well we spent four long yet funfilled days at the Mall of America. I had a blast. We head out to Oregon tomorrow. I'll be there for a couple days then it'll be back to Phoenix to get ready to go back to work.

Minneapolis

Today mom, Lincoln and I flew to Minneapolis to go to the mall of America. None of us have been there before. We'll be here until Saturday.

751

As of today I've written 751 poems since August 2007.

Reasons to Live

There are times it’s hard in the morning to get out of bed.
You think to yourself you’d be better off dead.
And sometimes you struggle to find anything left in you to give.
I’ve been down that path many times and here are some reasons why I live.
I live for each sunrise of a brand new day.
I live for the hope of things going in a better way.
I live for the blessings I can not yet see.
I live in hopes of becoming a better me.
Life may give you a hand that is hard to deal.
And you are sick and tired of everything that you feel.
And it’s hard to see the light at the end.
But there is still hope for you my friend.
There are times you feel you have nothing to give.
But here are some reasons for you to live.
Live for each moment that comes to you.
You never realize how much you can truly get through.
Live for the excitement of what may be around the bend.
Never give up cause given time the heart does mend.
Live for each day giving it your very best.
Before you know you will have overcome the test.
Live for hope, joy and love that is all around.
Live in knowing that you are special and in your life so much joy is found.

Teacher! Teacher! I GOT TO GO!

Teacher, teacher I got to go!
Not now Benny, it’s time for the puppet show.
Teacher, teacher I got to go bad!
Not now Benny, don’t look so sad.
Teacher, teacher I have to go now!
Now Benny, you’re a big boy you’ll survive somehow.
Teacher, teacher I can’t wait much more!
Now Benny, you should have gone before.
So Benny, what did you lean today?
Teacher taught me if you hold it long enough I’ll go away.
Benny look at you, you’re all wet!
Teacher said since I didn’t go earlier this is what I get.

I'm a major geek

I have written 21 poems today alone and I'm now up to 690. I have four binders of poems. I'm a major geek.

You think I'd learn by Now

Not to talk on the phone while getting something out of the oven! I burnt my the knuckle of my middle finger of my other hand! I never learn.

Lincoln

I wish that there was something I could do from my little brother Lincoln. He just learned that his one of his friends from Utah was killed in a car accident on Saturday. And he's really struggling. Right now all I can think of is keeping him in my thoughts and prayers and asking for those who know Lincoln to do the same. Thank you.

No real title

Two of my best friends had their babies this last week. And truth I'm so happy for them. I know in the recent past I've been jealous and all. But I'm not jealous I'm honestly and truthfully so happy for them and know they will be great mothers! So congrats and Rachel and Sarah! Here's Sarah and her son Aiden.

Hip Pain

Last night at work I popped my hip and so I was released from work for today to go to the doctor. It's just a strain and I go back to work on Wednesday. So it's nothing serious which is good, but it sure isn't fun. I strained my hip (yes the same hip) on Thanksgiving in 2007 as well. That hip is not good news. I've actually had problems with it majorly since I was about 18 or 19. I've gone to five different doctors and no one can figure it out. Actually today made six.

Frustration

I'm so screwed right now. I just seriously can't get a break. And I'm sick of it. I try to do what I should be doing and I get deeper in frustration and in trouble. I don't know how much more I can take. I'm honsetly not that strong. And this is really wearing on me. Sorry I'm just venting. Don't pay too much mind to it. Sometimes you just need to get things off your chest. I'm seriously on the verge of major breakdown. I just can't do this anymore.

Walking down the path of Life

While walking down the path of life today,
I came across a boulder in my way.
I could not walk around it,
For the cracks to the side no way I would fit.
I decided that I’d have to climb to get to the other side.
However it was also tall and made a good place for me to hide.
While walking down the path of life I decided I didn’t have to get through.
I could just sit against the rock and wait that’s what I’d do.
Wait for someone to guide me over with a lending hand.
Wait for someone to tell me all is okay if I don’t understand.
While walking down the path of life and this boulder in the way.
I decided then turn around and try another day.

Lighthouse on the Jetty

Just you and I walking along beach with sand between our toes.
Holding hands following wherever the path goes.
A distant light still shines bright.
Guiding boats to safety in the darken night.
In a second we could become like the boats lost at sea.
But the lighthouse on the jetty could also be a guide for you and me.
Just you and I stumbling around to find our way in the dark.
The only thing we see is the light’s distant mark.
The lighthouse on the jetty may seem like it’s far.
But it’s light proves it’s close to where you are.
Just you and I trying to see the light.
And if you have faith and believe the lighthouse on the jetty is shinning bright.

Actually

I'm going to make it song of the week. Or at least try. It very well could turn out to be month, but I'm going to do week instead. See how it goes.

Kind of Geeky

I am the first to tell you I'm a geek. But Idon't really care. As many already know I love music. So I decided to have song of the month. This first one is sort of sad, but don't read too much into. It's just kind of how life has been going lately plus I really love the song. No promise that it won't be like song of the year or whatever, I do promise to change it at least every month.
PS. Sorry in advice if alot of the songs are by Josh Groban and Elvis Presley. I will try to switch it up. And you have suggestions of songs you're more than welcome to let me know.

Joyous

Okay not really. But I will say that I had a lesson given to me today. I am having to stay the night in the Phoenix airport tonight cause my car is still in the shop. And I have to be back at work tomorrow morning and no transportation. Yesterday I took a taxi to work but it was 35 dollars! But here was the lesson. Here I am stressing about my car situaration and then this afternoon I learn that my brother down in Georgia just lost his job. At least I still have mine. I'm not having to look for work and possibly move. I'm thankful for that. Also last month his car broke down as well. Just goes to show to count your blessings. But Brandon is amazing here he is going through a tough time as well and he's handling it way better than I'm handling my trails. Just one of the many reason I admire and respect and deeply love my brother!

Year down the crapper!

I so want this year to just be over!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Yesterday I went over to my aunt Louise's to visit and on the way home my car yet again broke down. I just can't get a break!