Grateful

All day today I've just been having sort of an off day. But I do have to say that I'm so grateful for my friend Lee and my mom who were there when I really needed someone to turn to. Though things are still a little rough emotionally for me right now I'm so glad that I was able to talk to them and recieve their help and love. I just wanted to say that I'm grateful for them and many other people and things in my life.

1,791

Last night I wrote my 1,791st poem. I've been writting them now for just over three years. I have too much time on my hands. (I don't care what my dad says :) )

Cooking with Josh

Just a couple more reasons why I love Josh Groban. Other than his music and beautiful voice (and the fact I'm helplessly attracted to him) he cracks me up!


Makes me wonder if these came from kindergarten. :)

Forever

I know it's been a while since I last posted. But truth, not alot has been going on. Just the same old same old. I went back to Graceland on the 2nd for a grand total of eight times now. Then I went back to Oregon for a couple of days. Tonight on the way to work I was rearended. But other than that life is pretty much the same.

1752

I have now written 1,752 poems in a little over three years.

Canon in D

I like to play around on the piano, always have. This is a new song I'm learning. Now it's not the whole song and mind you I don't think it's all that good, but still I was proud of it.

LA

Right now I'm in LA I got here yesterday after a 6 and a half hour drive from Phoenix. And I get to make the drive back tomorrow. Which by the way I'm not looking forward to. Anyway I'm a HUGE fan of actors Montgomery Clift and Michael Landon. I went and saw Michael's grave yesterday. I was on Hollywood Blvd last night and decided to see if I could go up to the ninth floor and see the room number (the room was occupied) of the room that Montgomery Clift stayed in while fliming the movie From Here to Eternity. And to my surprise they let me.
So far it's been a good trip.

Hello

So September is here and it's still frying in Phoenix, the good thing is that I'm rearly here. Not a whole lot to post on, life is still the norm. Nothing to specail or exciting right not. Just thought I'd say hello. So hello.

Update again

I know it's been a bit since I wrote but honest I don't think alot of people look at it and that's fine. But that's why I haven't posted alot lately. Well since my last post I had a birthday, which was a pretty good one. I was up in Oregon with my family for it. We went to the coast.
This morning I had a tooth that has been bothering me pulled. It wasn't what I thought it would be like and almost didn't go through with it. But it's out and done with and as of now don't have to worry about it.

Sux Days Off

As I write I'm in the Dulles airport dreading leaving, but had a good day and a half here. I went to my friend Cody's wedding reception and the best part for me was seeing his face and many others cause I didn't tell anyone that I was coming. Well execpt for Lee who I didn't get to see this time cause his brother was also getting married. Now I'm on my way to Oregon for a couple days.
Oh and only three more days until my birthday!

Flying

I fly for a living almost every day. Normally on my days off I'm no where near an airport or plane. But today I'm on my way to Virginia for a couple days for a friend's wedding. Then on Sunday it's off to Oregon for a couple days and my birthday on Wednesday. Then Thursday it's back home and Friday back to work.
I like my job I really do, but there are days, like yesterday, that make me wonder why I ever became a flight attendant.
I've asked myself that question every now and then and lately it seems to be a question I ask more often.
Honest, being a filght attendant wasn't my dream or goal. It wasn't even in my plans.However, when my dreams, goals and plans fell through my mom suggested that I look into being a flight attendant.
At first I did it all for her. I was so so about it. But the more I got into it the more I became interested and it started to be more for me.
Why I'm a flight attendant now (almost five years later)
* I love traveling.
* I love meeting new people
* I love working with different kinds of people
* No matter how many times you go somewhere or work with someone it's never the same. Every flight is different.
* I love the veriality

Sometimes though when things like mother nature turn against you it's hard to remember the things you love about your job. But those that I listed are the main reasons why I'm a flight attendant and why I still am today.

Last 48 Hours

A couple days ago there was an innocedent on the plane invaulving a passenger that I felt I had to fill out paper work for just in case something comes of it, the company will have my side of the story. I was in a pretty losy mood for the rest of the day after wards.
However, today was exactly what I needed. Though I didn't start out in the best of moods (but I never do when I have to be up at 4:30am). I ran into a captain that strongly believes I'm wrong to believe in what I do (church wise) and I'm so tired of being told I'm wrong (there's a few others that have expressed such things to me as well at work).
However at work shortly after that I did a bunch of Tucson turns where since they are only 20 minutes we don't serve. So I sat talking to a couple passengers and had some really good conversations and the passgeners expressed apperication that I talked with them.
There was one couple that really gave me a wake up call. I don't know their names (since I didn't ask and they didn't say) so I'll call them Sally and Jim. When Sally was six months old she had her right eye removed cause of cancer.
She and Jim had a little girl who at five months old got the same cancer, but luckily was able to beat it and keep her eyes. She beat it last October.
Then April of this year Sally's mom and their daughter was killed in a car accident. Then next day Sally gave birth to another little girl. This little girl is now three months and she has the cancer in both of her eyes as well.
The car that hit killed their daughter and Sally's mom the driver was driving on a suspended license for the seventh time. But apparently since there was no drugs or drinking problems at any time he only got a misterminer.
So see and talk to this couple was a real eye opener. With every thing that they've had to deal with, overcame and deal with now, they still are able to keep their head above water and put their faith in love in God.
It also showed me that no matter what life gives us to also remember to count our blessings. That's something I don't very much. When tough times come I tend to dwell in pitty and sorrow. It's something I need to try harder not to do.
Count your blessings, something I'm going to try to work on alot more now.
So in the last 48 hours I went from horrible to pretty good.

Slight Update

Well the results of my Uncle's brain tumor is not good. Mom said he told her they gave him three months to two years to live. But he won't overcome it. It's a death sentence. Great and now I'm crying.

Life just gets better and better (stated with sarcasim)

Well last couple weeks have been both stressful and emotional. I got check rided at work and now have to have a meeting about what the check rider said. I don't think I'll be in big trouble or really any, but they just have to go over it with me. Also I found out that one of my uncles has a brain tumor and was just told day that my grandpa was colon cancer.
I'm so tired of all these one more things that's been happening to me in the last couple of years. It doesn't seem like it was that long ago that life was breezy. Then I moved to Arizona and the flood gates opened.
I'm emotionally drained and in major need of a break or some kind of get away. I wish I could just go somewhere where no one could find me, and all the bad that has happened would have no effect on me cause I wouldn't know about it.
I mean I'm glad to be informed, but I wish that there was a way to see it through without wanting to scream at the top of my lungs and pull my hair out!

I know I haven't posted in a while. Life has been a bit hectic, but I think things are starting to get back to a better pace. Hopefully anyway. Basically I've just been busy with work mostly. A few stressful personal side jobs in life thrown in as well. But I'm hanging on the best I can and doing the best I can for now.

Stars on Ice

I have fallen in love with figure skating all over again. Stars on Ice tonight was amazing and I wanted it to never end. I hope to go again next year. Back up to Utah tomorrow.

Ocean Waves

Maybe it's just me but watch the waves and see if you spot something different.

Yesterday. all my troubles seemed to punch me in the gut!

Yesterday was one of those days that would have gone better had I not gotten out of bed. For about a week or so I've been having problems with my back tire on the passenger side of my car. But instead of being responsible for it I ignored it. Well yesterday on the way to work it blew, it's completely shreaded. I mangaged to get off the road safely and right now it's parked at a Motel 6. So then I had to take a taxi the rest of the way to work. I got to work with about 30 minutes to spare. This week I'm on a 200 which means I'm the only flight attendant on the plane. The first flight was a disater from the word go. I spilt a soda on someone, I dropped trash in the ail, and I backed up into a little kid. Thankfully the other two flights where better. Then I get to the hotel in Des Monies and my room they put me in is dirty, so is the second room. Now it's after midnight and I just want to crawl into bed and not get out. Thankfully again the third time is a charm and the room was fine. I spent a lovely fun filled 31 hours of doing nothing at the hotel here in Des Monies. I have no money to take a taxi anywhere or rent a car. So that's it. Hopefully the rest of the trip goes better.

I'm an odd One

I need to stop watching old movies and becoming a fan of all the old timers most of which are no longer among the living. And yet I'm proud to be an old timer fan. In truth sometimes the older movies are better than today's. I will say though I do like today's movies as well and quite a few of today's actors. But I'm a fan of quite a few of the older ones too.

For example ~
Today Actors ----------------- Old Timers
Tom Hanks -------------------- Gene Kelly
Robin Williams --------------- Donald O'Connor
Matthew Broderick ------------ Elvis Presley
Denzel Washington ------------ Montgomery Clift
Meg Ryan --------------------- James Stewart
Julia Roberts ---------------- Yul Brynner

Today Movies ---------------- Old Timer Movies
Time Traveler's Wife -------- The King and I
Marley and Me --------------- Singin' in the Rain
Old Dogs -------------------- I Confess
The Blind Side -------------- It's a Wonderful Life
Dear John ------------------- Jailhouse Rock
The Lovely Bones ------------ It Happened One Night


To name a few.

Stars on Ice

For those who don't know I'm a HUGE and AVID fan of figure skating! And I have been since I was 13. Anyway I was able to drop a trip so I get a week off and two very exciting things happen cause of this. One I just got tickets to go see Stars on Ice when it comes to Phoenix in 18 days! I'll get to see skaters like Tanith Belbin and Ben Agosto, Todd Eldredge, Evan Lysacek and many more that I've loved for years! I'm so excited. Last time I went to Stars on Ice was 11 years ago!
The second exciting thing is I get to go back to Utah but this time for a friend's wedding!

Elvis Nerd

Right now I'm Las Vegas. I'm staying at the Holiday Inn but I went down to the Hilton Hotel which used to be called the International Hotel. When it's the hotel that Elvis used to preform at from 1969-1976. Yes I'm truly an Elvis nerd. But I don't care I love Elvis and am proud of it!

Hair cut

With it warming up in Phoenix I decided to get a new look.

Who wouldn't want to marry me?

I went up to Utah for Easter weekend and while there mom and I went and looked at wedding dresses just for fun. I wasn't going to try any on, but as you see I did. Please ignore that the back isn't done up, I was going just for the front look so did do up the back.
But I sure make a cute bride. Who wouldn't want to marry me? :)

It's never going to change

I've said it before and I'll say it again, I'm happy for all the friends I have that have found that special someone and fallen in love. But for me it's never going to happen. Oh why can't I just be happy and let it be?! Instead I feel a mixture of happiness and bitterness.
I'm forever going to be single. It's never going to change, and it's frustrating. I had a long talk with a friend last night and while it helped and I understood some things better, it doesn't change compeletly how I feel.
I can never get past just being friends with a guy and it drives me insain! I am so sick and tired of just being friends. I want something more! And it's hard that I feel and fear that it just wont happen for me.
Since I'll probably be alone for the rest of my life I might as well be happy with it. And deal with it the best I know how.

Totally made my night!

About a month ago I wrote an email to an old friend that I haven't talked to or heard from in a long time just on a whim, and tonight I got an email back. Made my night!

Update

Last Thursday right after work I flew out to Dulles and spent the weekend out there. I had a blast and hating leaving. When I got back to Phoenix on Sunday all I wanted was to be back in Virginia.
Friday my friend Lee took me to the DC Zoo which I had never been to before. I got to see a Panda which I don't believe I had ever seen before either.
Saturday we went to have lunch with my friend Jen and then went back to Lee's where Cody and his fience came over for ice cream.
Sunday I went to church which was stake conference. Then afterwards stopped by the Bishop's for a little while then it was off to the airport.
I really miss it and love it out there!
Then on Wednesday of this week I had an over night in Memphis and you guessed it I went back to Graceland. So I have now been to Graceland seven wonderful times. It never gets old. I love Graceland and I love Elvis!

Don't know what I really feel

In the last month I've had several good friends get engaged. And while deep down I;m happy for them I also don't know what I really feel. And with the last one I found out about I found out through the grapevine, just hurt that he didn't tell me. I'll be in town (Virginia) next weekend and you know what I really don't want to tell him I'll be there. When I congraduated him he said thank you and I was awesome. Well if he thinks I'm awesome then why couldn't he just have told me that he is engaged. Makes me mad. I mean I care about the guy as a friend and want him to be happy. Yes in the past I had rather strong feelings for him, but that was in the past. I mean we're talking about over two years ago. I'm over him and have been for a long while now.
With the other friends that have gotten engaged I more or less wish I could just be happy for them without being jealous.
Though in truth I'm happy for all of my friends who just got engaged and wish them all the joy, love and happiness life offers.

Please keep my brother in your prayers

My little brother has been having a really rough time lately and is not doing well. He's in a hospital right now, and I'm not sure completely how he is. So please pray for him and our family. Thank you it means alot.

Dylan

Aint he cute! My friend Julie had him back in January but she sent me this picture yesterday. I can't wait to meet him!

Back from Hawaii

I got back yesterday. I had a blast and loved every bit of it. My parents and brother Allen also came along.















More to come.

Hawaii

I'm in Hawaii! I'm so excited!

Olympics - Figure Skating

I'm an avide figure skating fan! And so far at these Olympics I'm 2 and 2. I wanted the pair team of Shen and Zhao to win and they did. And I wanted Evan Lysacek to win and he did. But I'm also one who is really nervous watcher. I have to know the results before watching if possible. Thankfully in both cases it was. But I was tracking their progress and all the other skaters on the internet. I'm just so happy for Shen and Zhao and Evan! Also Shen and Zhao are the first Olympic Champions in pairs for China and Evan is the first American man to win gold since Brian Boitano in 1988. Evan is also the first American man to win Olympic gold as the currant World Champion since Scott Hamilton in 1984. Last year when Evan won the Worlds he became the first American man to do so since Todd Eldredge in 1996. I love Evan and hope he sticks around for a little while longer (though I have my doubts).

Photo Fun Page

Please check out my photo fun page!

Where I went on January 27, 2010

Six times now and it never gets old!

Going down memory lane

For the last couple days when I've been home I've looked over some of my old log books from work. Mostly of my time in Dulles and it has brought back a lot of memories, some good, some bad. And truth it has made me want to go back even more. Life here in Phoenix isn't at all what I thought it would be nor is my life where I thought it would be. Though deep in my heart I know that I'm suppose to be here for whatever reason right now, I'd give anything to be back in Virginia. But as long as I'm here in Phoenix might as well make the best of it.

2010

Well year hasn't had the best of starts but hopefully things start to go a bit better. I will say though so far it beats last year.