Sort of interesting

You know what I realized yesterday? Everytime I've gone through a very dark period in life I've become a fan of a music artist. When I went through the tough times each of the musicans provided me a place that I could just get away from everything and give me peace. When I was 15 I went through a very difficult year and at that time I became a fan of *N Sync. When I was 17 I started to try to figure out my place in life and during that period I become a fan of Josh Groban. In the last six months (except for when I was 15) it has been the most difficult time in my life so far. And within the last six months I've become a fan of Elvis Presley. And I'm still a proud fan of all of them and always will be.

Kind of cool

Okay I'm not really a fan but this morning on my flight from Palm Springs to Phoenix I had Charles Barkley on my plane. He was nice and had a good sense of humor. I thought it was kind of cool. I also got his autograph and ticket stub.

Drama at work is no fun

Man drama at work is no fun. For some reason they upgraded our flight from Phoenix to Palm Springs. Won't really complain cause upgrading so much better than downgrading. Anyway there was a couple in the back who seemed fine to me. I went up front and the other flight attendant went to the back to close overhead bins. While back there I guess the couple was fighting and she seperated them. Still though the captain had to talk to her. Then just before we took off the girl went and saw with the guy. I told them that I didn't mind but if there was another problem then I would seperate them again. Thankfully there wasn't. But she was a mess. She was embrrassed by what happened and claimed she couldn't remember any of it. She was really out of it. I tried to help calm her down. She did okay. But by the time we landed they were fighting again cause he told me that he was married and that the girl he was with was just the girlfriend. And she didn't like that.

I ain't no flippen toilet!

I'm in Monterey CA for work. We got done early like around 12:30 this afternoon. I can actually see the ocean in the distance from my hotel room window. So I took about a five minute walk to the beach. I was walking on the pire and some bird flew by and as it did it decided that I looked like a great target for practice. I didn't think so. I didn't get much, just a little on the hand. But still not pleasant.

My Relief

I know that I need to get out more and need more of a life. But when I'm going through a dark spot I have six major comforts or reliefs.
1) Figure Skating - I can't skate worth beans but it almost never fails me when I just need something to get my mind off my sorrow, figure skating does the trick. It just takes me to the competition or event and I feel as if I'm almost apart of it.
2) Music - My number three and four fall into this catorgory and somewhat so does figure skating. But each also play it's own part. I've loved music as long as I can remember. Growing up I did ballet, choir and took piano lessons. I've learned that music is somewhat like thearpy. It just calms me and gives me peace. It takes me anywhere my imagination wants to take me.
3) Josh Groban - His voice is so magical and powerful it's like a dream. A dream I don't want to wake up from. He sings from his heart and you can not just hear the passion in his voice but also feel it. It sends chills up my spine that no other artist has ever been able to do. Plus to me he's smokin' hot!
4) Elvis Presley - In the last six months with everything that I've been having to go through, Elvis has been a major relief. In the last six months I've been tried so strongly and so much that I've felt like I could just crumble. But instead I listen to Elvis or watch one of his movies, concerts or on youtube and see how corny he was and it just cracks me up. When I listen to Elvis I forget about everything. And for that brief moment I have no problems.
5) Writting - I love writting. As of today I have 19 diaries, 1,730 pages in my life story, over 200 poems and several little short stories that I've written or writting. When I write I get to be that character I'm writting about or I get to put myself in a different situation that maybe I've never been in, and have to figure out what I would do if it was me. Or when I write a poem I can take something from my past and throw in a twist or just get my feelings off my chest. In my diaries and life story I can go back to when things weren't so hard and remember the good life has in store. Or go back when I was struggling and see what I did that helped then and maybe to try to apply it to what I'm going through now.
6) Tigger - I know this one seems a little off beat. And yes I mean Tigger from Winnie the Pooh. I just love him. And when I'm down I just give a little squeeze or cry into is stuffing and I feel better. It's hard to discribe really how Tigger is a relief. He's more like a seurity blanket.

Please don't get the wrong idea

Okay I don't want to offend anyone, it's just something I feel the need to get off my chest. Now first off I'm happy for all my friends that have found true love and I hope for nothing but joy, happiness and all the love in the world. It's just that I wonder if it will ever be my turn. I'm 24 now and I aint getting younger. I feel like an old maid. This year alone it seems like I have a friend who has either gotten married or engaged almost once a month.
I had a friend that got married in February, two in March, one in April, two in June, two in July, one in August, one this month and I just found out that another good of mine just got engaged.
I tell people that I had a boyfriend in high school, but truth be told you really can't call what Tom and I had a relationship. We were just friends that called each other boyfriend and girlfriend. But we never really dated. But I say I have an ex to make myself feel better. Otherwise I'm a 24 year old who has never been in a relationship.
Yes I've had people tell me that being in a relationship isn't all that great most of the time. But I just want to know what it is like to love someone and have them love me in return. Instead it's always me who falls for them but it's never anything but friendship in return. And I'm sick of it. It's frusterating. Like I said I'm happy for all my friends that have found that someone in their lives. And I truly wish them well.
I guess you can say I'm jealous. There is a rather large part of me that thinks, feels and fears that I'll never find that. I will never have a family of my own. That is all I have ever wanted in life. Is to be a wife and mother.
I'm pretty much content of where my life is right now and I wouldn't have given up my experiences I've had to have the wish come true. But as I get older I feel time is running out. I just want a turn. Why is that so much to ask for?

Josh Groban Girl

So I said and somewhat proved that I'm an Elvis Presley geek. But even more than Elvis I love Josh Groban. I have been a fan of his next month will make six years. If you've never heard of him you need to check him out. I went to his concert in DC last year. These are pictures from it. By the way digital zoom rocks! ( I wasn't that close) Iwent with my friend Chelsey.

Stupid internet

My internet at home got cut off cause they say I haven't paid my bill. However, I did pay it over a week ago. I don't know what is up with that. I'm actually at work right now. I'm sitting on a plane in Kansas. How exciting! Just kidding. It's going to be a long day. From here I go back to Phoenix and then go to Des Moines and stay there until tomorrow afternoon. What an exciting life I lead. Again kidding or at least for this trip I'm kidding. My tv at home is out too cause they say I owe them money but again I paid that bill too. Makes me think something is up. I'm working on figuring it out. After to get tv soon cause the figure skating season starts this month. I can't wait! Now that I'm exicited for.

I like my job

Somedays I have to keep reminding myself why I do what I do. Today was crazy. Or I guess I should say yesterday. I'm on a four day trip. Today is day four thank heavens. Yesterday I was in San Antonio pretty much all day. I even got a hair cut. I only cut like three inches. But that's not the point. We got to the airport around 6 Texas time. Got on the plane and was about ready to board when we find out that one of the engines is leaking oil, and it's pretty bad. About two hours later we were able to change planes and took off. But it was a pain. Thankfully the passengers were all pretty good. On Monday we had another issue with a different plane, except that one we discovered it was broken after we had all the passengers on the plane. It's just been a horrible trip. The only plus is that I get along with the crew.

Josh and Elvis Geek

I love music. I always have ever since I can remember. I like lots of music. I was in ballet for about six years, did choir all through school and I play the piano (just for fun, I'm not that good). But my favorite singers of all time are number one: Josh Groban and number 2: Elvis Presley.

I love them. I guess you can say I'm a major Josh and Elvis geek!

Graceland

July 22, 2008

April 25, 2008

Huge Elvis Presley fan. In fact I first became a fan of his shortly after my first visit to Graceland in April.

Sun Studio

Sun Studio is in Memphis TN. It is the studio music artis Johnny Cash, Elvis Presley and several others got their start.

Memphis

Mississippi River

On a layover in Memphis on September 25, 2008 I went down to Beale Street. I'm a big Elvis Presley fan and that is who the statue is of.

July 2007

Palmyra

Buffalo

My parents and I went to Palmyra New York and Buffalo New York.